Thread:Ragna the Bloodedge/@comment-10544474-20140509140603

Here I am once more, finding myself lost in words. The more and more I think about it, I realize that all I want is to be able to be acknowledged. I want to be wanted by everyone. I want you all to know who I am, what I've done, and what I can do. The reason why my inferiority complex is here, is because every time someone, particularly you-know-who, overcomes what I've done, I feel that I've lost all attention. I no longer matter to the world, and so, I push those friends away. I'm afraid of being left out; I want to be apart of everyone's life, to be able to help. I know this is just a dream, but to me, it's a painful reality that I can't overcome. It's my nature, right? I can't ever change that about me, so I just wanted people to accept me for who I was, even though I only ended up losing everyone. Now, I'm alone. New friends, new place, yet, my heart drives me back here. I feel...saddened whenever I see that chatbox to the right, knowing that it's not meant for someone like me. Without them, I only have myself and the new people I meet for comfort. I can't see her face either...Nor would she want to see mine...It hurts, sometimes. It really does, but I try to get over it. Love is only a passing though, and the words I said mean nothing now. Even if I cry, I know the tears will be for naught, as what can change inside of me? I'm sorry for bothering you all, and I hope that one day, we can all reconcile and settle our differences. As for now, I'll wait.

~May 9, 2014. 7:05 AM~PST~ 