User blog comment:The Yang Xiao Long/My life right now./@comment-209.195.85.53-20160204034411

Warning: ''Pathetically depressing/sad. Please keep any trolling, teasing, or insults to yourself (as I already do all that to myself XP)''

Hope your doing okay, and things are working for you now. Take it from me, I've lost friends and family (and a baby pet cat that I always considered my brother) in more ways than just death, and I don't even get along with my family, due to our history of depression and mental illness.

One good example of when I was literally just 5 years old, my grandma chased me with a knife, threatening to cut me......twice. Fortunately, she wasn't too fast. Now, I've dealt plenty types of loss, some cousins, a close friend of my aunts, etc.

When dealing with the losses and abuse of many people, I more or less acted like you when I was 8-10 years old, but by the start of high school, I just about had enough. I decide to shut down my emotions, and pushed my friends and family away. I never cared to make ammendments; never cared of bonding with anyone else; so that I never feel hurt by others, wether indirectly, or directly................even though I've been hurting myself, both physically and verbally, to push myself to contiune forward, breaking myself internally.

Though, by around spring 2014, when my high school VP, Principal, and Police detective found out (SOMEHOW) that I attempted suicide. We, along with my mother,had a discussion, then I was sent to the emergency room for a few sessions, and then was recommended for counselling sessions.

2 Years later, I've been along with my family, and I've never felt so genuinely happy to keep moving forward my entirely life.

The (cliche) moral of this story is that things will get better, but you gotta risk opening up and getting hurt, cause th benefits, for the most part, outweighs the risks.

You, and anyone who's having any form of conflict is always welcome to share your thoughts, and we're here to listen and support you in anyway we can. You're never alone. Remember that. Keep moving forward, okay, friend? ^_^

- AL