User blog:Arata Shijima/Wretched past of mine!

WARNING!: This is kinda sadistic and emotional for me to write about my past, please don't laugh at what I do, it's inevitable for my current thinking at that time. You're welcomed to ask about my past, but please don't insult what I did in my past. And also, this is original, no copying other's past or anything of the sort.

Please actually read the warning. And with all of that, have a nice trip in my memories! Note: I'll add drawings to my past later, so keep check on this page if you actually care.

Kid (5 or so, 6 when I graduated from the kindergarten.)
I was 5 or so when I came to the kindergarten know as Yu Der, I was happy at that time, but when I entered the Kindergarten, it became apart of what I'd actually think of. People are there, with their sights all concentrated on me with a fully disgusted sight. I was skeptical at that time, but I went forward to introduce myself to the class, and all of them clearly disgusted me by the looks of their faces. While we take a break, a few kids there picked on me. I offered a handshake as a sign of willing to forge a friendship, but they pinned me to the wall and said: "Nobody will like you, you disgusting jerk!" I was confused and they left, that left me pondering for the rest of the day, even in sleep. The days passed with me getting no friends at all, and my little brother Bryan noticed that there was no more light shines within my eyes like I used to when I was pure, and confronted me about it. I refused his help and ran off, just like Jaune Arc did with Pyrrha Nikos in one of the Chapters in RWBY. My childhood was soon fractured and the days passed with all the loneliness and despairness I carried with me.

Primary School (7-9) An Pang Arc/安邦小学
When I was 7, I went to An Pang Primary School, which is located in Malaysia, Kuala Lumpur. I thought maybe the people there would be nicer to me, but it seems I'm wrong and wrong. The people there again hated me at first sight, and I was again boycotted like I used to. I cried...my life was full of despair that time, no people came to help me, alone forever in the voids of eternal darkness itself, that's when my inner darkness takes over. I had a different personality at that time, and I given it a name..."Alex". I hurted people to seek attention, I turned into a insane being with a horrible attitude and hurt people...the discipline room is where I go frequently for all my actions. My heart was fratured at the time and still, I was alone, deep in the bloody heir named "Isolation"...till one day, a mysterious student appeared before me, and offered to be friends with me. My eyes again filled with light, I received his offer happily. You thought this is the end? No. One day, he said he was moving away, due to his father despises me at first sight. I, again willing fall to the darkness...no redemption or light is seen for me that time, and we moved to Semenyih when I'm in Standard 3.

Primary School (10-12) Sin Ming Arc/新民小学
I moved to Semenyih as soon as I finished Standard 3, I was uncaring that time and don't even bothered to try and make friends. That resulted to another boycott as I kept silent during the class, and I was labelled sociopath. I lost all of my emotions and feelings to the world...all of it feels so painful, not by physically but...-throbs heart- Here, I feel empty and painful deep down here. It all was a illusion...at that time, my way of talking changes completely. The days passed, and I can feel nothing at that time, the feelings and my heart is so numb. Years passed to me like it was nothing, and all I can do is waiting for the pitiful 24 hours to pass with people mumuring behind my back...I didn't care. When I was at Standard 6, Two of the most important people in my life appeared before me. They were like, beings of light who brought redemption upon me, and saved me from the isolation. It was then I feel the warmth light of friendship and someone I hold dearest to. On the fateful July 27th, they came to my birthday party and presented me with a Facebook account. I was a moron in technology that time and I asked them:"What's this for? Gaming?" They replied:"This will keep the light in check with both of us by your side forever...and make new friends in the process!" I cried and literally hugged them, thanking them for all they've done to me. I finished Standard 6 and parted ways with them, with a smile on my face and a row of tears.

That's all! See you guys around! I'll add the drawings later.

-Chong