Board Thread:News and Announcements/@comment-4820209-20150202184613/@comment-24994749-20150210003710

For me it was shock (when I saw the news, because I was so sure he would recover), denial and, as strange as it might sound, guilt (because right before we received the news of his hospitalization and death, I had received good news after several months of going through a big low in my life, and it felt as if I had stolen someone's else good luck).

When I got into acceptance, I started to feel really worried about Sheena. Like, I always had that thought on the back of my mind since we heard Monty died, but now it's my dominant feeling.

I know we never knew the particulars of her relationship with Monty (hell, we didn't even know the were married until all this happened) but I can't stop thinking: she is so young, he was so young, to lose someone so close after having been able to enjoy only such a short time together... It feels like life robbed/swindled her.

When I saw she had written down a journal at the RT website about the funeral, I thought reading it would make me feel better. But it somehow didn't.

I realise I probably sound stalkerish.