Thread:Ragna the Bloodedge/@comment-10544474-20140414060241

What do I honestly feel these days? Chat's always a tab that opens up, but after a while, I just go away. I get it. I just have to push myself to contribute, but what is there to contribute to? RWBY's not something I can get into, some types of anime that I like, barely anyone else is a fan of. I have fighting games as an aspect I love, but Dips is the only one that gives me a hand in that department and as well as Yang sometimes. Other than that, I don't have much else do I? The story I've been writing has had its hiatuses, and that's about it. Video games are dying off as Ara's posting 5k damage scores every time she's in chat, and there's no way I can do that. I can't even beat 15 Titans in Forest as Armin without having to restart because I died or I ran out of gas. I guess I just suck at the game now, as well as most other games. I also have roleplaying to fall back on, but no one in the chat's pinged me or even messaged me to ask, "Hey, do you want to do that RP yet?", and I just don't know. I have the logs for the RPs in my history, but yeah. It makes me wonder if they've just forgotten about them. Wiki's helping me out on a signature/banner for that Log Horizon Forum I've been going on for roleplays, and to be honest, the community there is great. They're nice, chill, and roleplaying is in abundance. They're really fun, and I don't know what to say about the chat here. Lately, I just feel dead. No one wants to talk to me, and even I bring up a topic, what would that be? I have a six month ban ready for me if I dare do anything hostile, and right now, it doesn't seem so bad. After Wiki's done, I might get my ban on purpose again, because in all honesty, who cares? It's not like anyone talks to me. I've been banned three times, four including Fanon's ban, and I'm probably one of the most disliked people here. There's really no point in me staying anymore, as all I've done is cause shit to everyone that I've talked to. Right now, I must seem like an idiot, but all I can see myself is an idiot. Feelings are mixed about things, and I don't know if I need some time off or anything. Maybe, it would be better being banned. Kain wouldn't have to deal with my bullshit, Preda won't have to constantly shout at me, Dylan will have one less person to say, "Fuck you" to, and really just everyone won't have to bother with me anymore. It's not like they ever did, but I guess. I'll give Wiki until he finishes and then I'll decide on what I want to do.

~April 13, 2014. 11:01 PM~PST~ 